Shame, like Brené Brown states, “ is the most powerful master emotion. It’s the fear that we’re not good enough.” This became too true making me spiral and doubt who I was and wanting to hide in my shame. It seemed like an involuntary pattern that I would find myself sneaking food and eating in isolation.

This ability to let go was not an overnight switch, and that is partly why I want to be an encouragement to those who are battling with themselves. I believe God gave us food as a gift to nurture, to be our medicine, and allows us to connect with others over a meal we share. Yet, all this was stripped away when I associated eating with shame. I lost my joy in nurturing my body because it became an obsession to control.

So as I begin this writing journey, I hope my story will serve as an example and reminder that when we truly confess our sins, which in my case was my desire to control, that God truly is faithful to heal, restore, and cleanse us.